Breaking Point and I can only trust My Father.

Hey Ya! Been to long since I have posted anything . 

BACK HOME AND ITS BEEENNNN GOOOD (:

Missing home and my family , I just feel like staying home all the time.

Only 4 months Im away and I've missed them. I cant imagine next year.

It's gonna be one roller coaster ride for me emotions. LORD GIVE ME STRENGTH.

I dont know where to begin seriously. So much things has happened and I don't know how to feel.

Honestly this isn't me. I hate being upset. My emotions are pretty unstable. Im happy then I can be sad just in a spilt second, I can't explain why.

All I need is HIM. HE satisfy my soul.

My friends are an important assets in my life

yet

I've been thinking a lot lately. 

Where did I go wrong in my friendships?

Have become someone really annoying or have I change ?

It's really true what the bible says about the tongue.

It either gives you life or just bring you down.

In my case, It brought me down

Proverbs 18:21                         " The tongue has the power of life and death, and those who love it will eat its fruit"

I dont blame anyone, seriously I don't. 

Maybe I need my space, 

Maybe its time for me to stand back and look beyond the things that has happen.

Maybe I should just shut up and move on.

easier said than done actually.

I know why it has to be done a certain way but I just want to know why it has to be kept too long?

Am I that scary to be told upfront?

I am a person who usually hates being the one left out of a loop. 

Im hoping for a better tmrw because I cant continue feeling like this any longer.

Wanna know the worst part of all?

Not being allowed to even" follow" someone so close.

I know its just some silly thing but to me it isn't .

Told you , Im being left out of a loop.

Thank God , Jesus doesn't do that too .

That I am being very thankful of .

People dont trust me , I feel that way.

Im sorry for being such a pain .